I have been considering getting tested for ADHD. It’s something I’ve been thinking about off-and-on for several years. I had a therapist suggest it one time at my evaluation, but I was new as her patient and didn’t like her (this is the girl that kept referencing religion and the bible even when I told her I was not a believer) and so I blew it off because I didn’t want any follow-ups with her at all.
I honestly don’t even remember what it was that made her suggest it, but it put the seed in my brain and I have thought about it periodically since. Lately, though, I’ve been thinking about it more and more. The first increase in consideration was after recognizing Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria in myself and realizing the connection it has to ADHD in children. The second was reading about Amalah’s diagnosis and her commentary about how dumb she felt never having been diagnosed before.
I am thinking I should revisit this suggestion from the Religious Therapist Who Should Not Be Named.
I’ve been paying closer and closer attention to how I get distracted lately in case I decide to get tested (we have a high deductible insurance plan right now so you have to really want this kind of testing which SUCKS) I want to be able to explain exactly what my distraction looks like. I don’t do that thing where I forget why I entered a room. No, I complete change paths/tasks without even thinking about it and I won’t realize it for several steps later. This was me yesterday afternoon:
- Sit down to watch Locke & Key on Netflix. Approx 10am.
- Start watching the autoplay trailer for Love is Blind
- Get so mad by the dumb trailer I close out Netflix, forgetting I was going to watch Lock and Key.
- Realize this is hilarious and decide to tweet about it.
- Open twitter and see notifications of “likes” of my tweet about the last blog post which features an awkward picture of me holding E.
- Decide to go see if I can find any pictures of me holding N and W that show I got better at holding babies
- Notice that my Google Photos seems to have not enough photos from 2008
- Get out my external hard drive to see if there’s any pictures missing on Google Photos
- Realizing I’m missing a cord and end up just cleaning out my whole desk drawer looking for it.
- This reminds me I needed to reorganize a drawer in my bathroom.
- Run to TJMaxx to get drawers for under the sink in my bathroom.
- Get back home, reorganize the entire bathroom storage situation.
- Decide I need a reward in some TV time. Open up Netflix to watch Locke & Key and then it hits me…Wait. Didn’t I sit down to do this a few hours ago? It was approximately 12:30pm.
See? It’s not like I don’t complete some tasks, I am very good at completing tasks! Just not always the one I initially set up to complete. And I don’t even consciously make the decision: I’m not going to do that first thing, I’m going to do the second thing instead. Nope. I just end up completely switching roads without ever even noticing the turn. And this is the part I find really frustrating. Because a lot of time I need to be doing the first thing. I mean, not in the case of watching a TV show, but something that first thing I end up leaving behind was important and then I have forgotten all together.
I forget A LOT OF STUFF, y’all. And for someone who is really organized and has reminders set and to-do lists and alarms and everything…I do everything I can to help myself remember things. BUT I STILL FORGET THINGS CONSTANTLY. And a lot of it can be mapped out with these type of mental wanderings where I have the thing in my head and then I’m not longer thinking about it and I didn’t even consciously decide to do that.
So I’m wondering if ADHD is one of my challenges, maybe there’s something that can help? Maybe I’m just feeling a bit of hope with how Amalah’s diagnosis and the ensuing prescription has helped her so much, and maybe I want a little bit of that?
I don’t know. I should at least call to find out how much it will cost! I hate to be like that (making health decisions based on money) but this new surgery for W has already taken $3000 out of our savings (Bonus! He now has met his deductible!), it’s not like we’ve got a bunch more just sitting around waiting for my ADHD testing. But maybe it’s not as much as allergy testing?
Anyone have any experience with ADHD testing?