Reframing the language around exercise on my daily task lists. Like…I put “movement” on my list instead of “exercise”. I’m not sure if that’s the word I’m looking for or not, but I’m trying to reset my framework around fitness so that it feels more like something I do for health and happiness and less for exercise and weightloss, if that makes sense. Some days I find I avoid all activity that doesn’t fit in the framework of a run, or a yoga class when there are 100 other ways to be healthy and happy. Like simply going for a walk during Wesley swim practice or something.
Becoming more disciplined about limiting my social media use. I had set up all of these limits on my phone and my browser but it didn’t take me long to figure out how to work around those limits. I need to remind myself that it’s not because it’s a waste of time, it’s because it depletes my energy and damages my mental health. I can waste all the time I want if I just find ways to waste time that don’t make me hate myself or worry about the state of our world to the point of insomnia.
Kinder language to myself. Or at least learn to hear when I use the terrible negative speak towards myself. I went to a REAL party this weekend and did a lot of REALLY good socializing and really enjoyed myself but I keep doing that thing where I replay conversations and moments and then suddenly hate myself or am embarrassed with myself or ashamed or…well, you know the drill. So I’m trying to stop those thought patterns and be kinder and gentler and just proud of myself for even lasting at a parting for FIVE HOURS. We were out until almost MIDNIGHT. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? Also? I’m starting a 5:30am boot camp for the next 4 weeks so I deserve extra love and kindness if I’m going to stick to THAT schedule.