Thoughts From An Election-Fried Brain.

As the results were rolling in the night our country elected Trump as President, I found myself sobbing uncontrollably. I couldn’t stop. I didn’t sleep much that night because I kept waking up hoping for some miracle even though I didn’t even doze off until after the election had been called. For the next 48 hours or so I had to sometimes hold my breath or bite my tongue just to keep from crying spontaneously.

I don’t think today will be like that if our election goes to Roy Moore, because I’m bracing for that situation. I was not at all prepared for a Trump victory. But I’m still on edge today and worried about the fate of my state and the message we deliver to the world if Roy Moore wins. And because I now how much my state hates Democrats, I know there’s still a good chance Moore wins.

It was hard to know people I loved or respected had voted for Trump, but I tried to understand their hatred for Hillary as the explanation. If you watch Fox News at all, you can easily see why anyone who watched that only would hate Hillary. So, as much as it broke my heart, I was able to look past it and maintain relationships.

But y’all? This is different. I honestly don’t know anyone close to me for sure is voting for Moore. This either means they’re not as vocal about it, or they’re not supporting him. But if I found out they voted for him I just do not know how I could move past that. I’m praying if anyone I know votes for him they do it silently and they don’t openly celebrate his victory because I honestly am not sure I could maintain more than a casual relationship with someone who voted for Roy Moore. Especially if he wins, because every time he makes me ashamed of my state I’ll think of those people and their choice.

I want this Doug Jones win more than I can possibly explain. I feel it in my heart and while there’s a part of me prepared for him to lose, it is not my heart. My heart is not prepared because my heart will not be able to take it. My heart has so many political scars on it from the first year of Trump’s Presidency, it’s not strong enough to handle a Moore victory.

13 thoughts on “Thoughts From An Election-Fried Brain.”

  1. You speak my mind, Kim, on many fronts. I am holding my breath but bracing for a Moore win. If that happens I won’t want to know a single confirmed voter for him because that too, will change my mind and my relationship with that person.

  2. And if Moore does win, I will not blame that loss on a low turnout of African Americans should that population not vote in large numbers. Moore winning will not be because black voters did not come to the polls. It will be because large numbers of white people cast their vote for him.

  3. I’m kind of afraid to hope. I will certainly vote to do my part. I was caught so off guard last year that I’m afraid to think that voters will be sensible. I’m not sure if I have people close to me voting for Moore or not. I haven’t talked to some family members much lately, especially after an argument last year where one was equating Bill Clinton’s behavior to Trumps and blaming Hillary for it. So I’m not sure how they stand. I dread a Moore win.

  4. The world is indeed watching; it was on the German news this morning as I drove into work. I also pray that the good people of Alabama send a clear message that people like Roy Moore do not belong in the U.S. Senate but rather a jail cell.

  5. A clarification, I didn’t mean to imply at all that African American votes are not crucial. I only meant that the number of voters by race is gigantically tipped to the white population.

  6. I have been thinking about you for weeks. As this unfolds and the coverage goes on and on and I’m sick in my stomach. But I also have a face to think about when the media talks about ‘the people of Alabama” and so just wanted to reach out and let you know that across the miles, I have been thinking about you and your state.

  7. Voter turnout appears to be moderate to heavy and amazing for a special election. I was voter 487 at 10:30 in my very rural Bobo section Fire Station polling place

  8. Just a long-time lurker (and former Alabama resident) but have to say Congratulations!!!! Whew!!!

  9. Hurray for this historic win, and for the African American vote that made it happen. A quick look at some of the statistics had a majority of white women voting for Moore. How is this possible??? Ugh.

  10. I also had you on my mind tonight, and had to come here to cheer with you as soon as I heard! It’s a GREAT night!

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