Y’all. Coffee is magic.
I’m certain the way I make my coffee that there’s not a whole lot of caffeine in each cup, yet the first few sips will just clear my sleepy head in a way that makes me think: Okay. Okay. I can do this.
I made a fatal error last night and took my first dose of my new medicine right before bed like my doctor told me to do (“It can sometimes make you drowsy.”) but I also took my Melatonin too without thinking about the two together. All I was thinking was that I needed some sleep and Melatonin helps sleep overpower the voices in my head trying to keep me awake.
THOSE TWO SHOULD NOT GO TOGETHER.
Every time Sweetie needed to go out in the middle of the night I woke up dizzy and foggy and when it was time to get up this morning I thought, “Nope. Not happening. I can’t leave the couch ever again. I’m too tired.”
AND THEN THE COFFEE CAME.
I still don’t feel great in terms of nausea, but the coffee is at least making me feel like I could maybe function like a normal human today.
So, learn from me: Do not combine 2mg of Abilify with Melatonin before bed. DOES NOT MAKE FOR A GOOD NIGHT’S SLEEP.
Speaking of my Abilify, here’s a funny story. I got 30 days worth of 2mg pills (those pills are SO SMALL) to try to supplement my Lexapro. My Lexapro costs me like $11 because there’s a generic and my insurance helps out. Abilify? $80! I googled how much it costs without insurance and do you know? $800! Holy shitake mushrooms, y’all! I kinda hope this doesn’t help because this shit is EXPENSIVE.
I’ll report back, of course. Like always.
Anyone else really sick of me talking about my mental health? Here’s the thing: There’s a lot more shit going on in my life right now but not really bloggable stuff, you know? If you want to go to get coffee with me I wouldn’t talk so much about my mental health, but when it comes to things on my mind I can push for the world to read? This is the story that is ALL MINE so I can do whatever I want with it.
Oh! You know what else is all mine? MY TATTOO!
DUDE. I just got so distracted just then. I was trying to figure out how to take a good picture of my tattoo to show you guys because the sun’s not even up yet and neither are any humans capable of photographing me and then I started thinking Wait, did I already put pictures of my blog of my final tattoo? so I went to search my blog and I got distracted by the news of the explosion on the London Tube that caught my eye and then I started thinking about how everyone in the photos looked so well dressed and then I thought about how rarely I look well dressed and then I remembered I BOUGHT A BLOUSE AT CVS LAST NIGHT and for some reason that cracks me up and says a lot about my personal style and then I thought Wait…what was I doing?
So, since I can’t figure out how to get a good picture of my tattoo to show you guys (My tattoo artist posted one on her instagram here if you want to see a full shot) here’s a selfie showing PART of my tattoo and PART of my CVS blouse. Also – my face is red because I just got out of the shower and I NEEDED A HOT SHOWER TO BATTLE THE FOG TODAY, Y’ALL.
Yep. This entry seems ready to publish. I should title this “Exhibit A: Zoot Does Not Function Well Without Sleep.”