The weird thing about blogging daily is that there are many days where I have 12 things I really want to talk about, but I can’t figure out how to make them good blog entries (or if I even should) so I just don’t write anything.
That has been my last week.
And it’s funny, it’s not even like I could do a bulleted list because it’s such a wide range. Like, after our local Pride Parade some stuff came up on Facebook where I really wanted to unload and write about why it is so offensive to compare alcoholism to homosexuality in a “hate the sin/love the sinner” or “born with the desire to sin” type of argument. But I still can’t quite it into words more than, “That’s offensive!” And then I often start to cry because – DAMMIT – how awful would it be to come of age in a world surrounded by people who are telling you that to become intimate with a person you find attractive (because loving them is not the sin, you see) is A) equatable to an addiction that ruins lives and families and B) sending them straight to hell. I look at the young gay people in my life and think they are so much stronger than I am.
But on the not-so-serious side of the spectrum I want to write about how my son has gotten me hooked on RuPaul’s Drag Race (Season 6) and now I’m actually buying episodes on iTunes that were not free on LOGO. Why would he do that to me days before he moves? I can’t stop watching the show. I want to buy a few more episodes this morning but I’m trying to restrain myself. I’ve followed all of the top queens (that I love) from the show on instagram like I’m some sort of Drag Queen stalker now. Do you all know how much I know about being a glam girl? NOTHING. I don’t wear making, I don’t own high heels, and none of my clothes or jewelry sparkle. But that doesn’t mean I don’t have opinions about these contestants. Last night I was sitting in my running clothes and brown fuzzy houseslippers and complaining about how Courtney Act makes a beautiful woman but I think she’s kind of a boring Drag Queen. WHO AM I?
And then there’s the ever present Zoot’s Addiction To Food topic which I’m always ready to write about. This week’s variation is, “How Kim can binge even on plant-based whole foods!” Actually – most of my binging has been in the form of sandwiches so I think I’m going to give up bread for awhile too. A large part of the experiment is to take away a lot of my “comfort” food options to force me to cope with my anxiety/stress in places other than my kitchen. And it has helped to a degree, there is a lot of binge-moves I haven’t made because of this experiment. However, I’m also eating the shit out of cereal with almond milk and also peanut butter sandwiches. Those are my new binge foods. SO! I’m going to give up breads and cereals for a bit too. Let’s see what weird thing I start to binge on now!
And no “What’s on Zoot’s Mind” entry would be complete without the Parenting Fail topic that’s ever present. I really want to tell you all how far I’ve fallen from that first successful week of summer working from home. Two days straight this week and I’ve basically begged my kids to stay in front of the TV all day so I could work. I am not going to win any parenting awards this summer. It started off SO GOOD! But then it went SO BAD! But! It’s not over yet! I’m going to try to do better today. At least make them play outside a little bit. I tried that yesterday and it worked for about 10 minutes. Maybe today we can go for 15 minutes! WOOT WOOT!
So, yeah. That’s why I haven’t written. I have a million things I want to expound on, but none of them in any way that would seem to make a good blog entry. So – now you have them mixed together into ONE entry so that you can have a variety of things to comment on today! The most important being: Which season of RuPaul do I watch after I finish season 6?
i think you’re totally right on the money with your emotional response to people likening homosexual acts with alcoholism or addiction. but…i’m not even sure how to put this into words, so i’m just going to type: i believe that they are both something a person is at least genetically predirected toward. i can see, easily, that alcoholism and addiction cause far more problems than homosexuality (because, does it cause any problems? other than weirdos who think family values are in jeopardy?) but i do not feel that alcoholics or addicts should be villified (not that you did that, you didn’t) or treated as less than, or somehow unequal to other people.
and now i sound like i think that homosexuality and addiction are both afflictions. i don’t think that, for the record. i just think we all are…who we are.
Just want to say I love your blog so much! I’m an emotional eater too–hoping I can replace exercise with eating as a way to cope.
I haven’t watched the last few seasons of Ru Paul’s Drag Race, but I loved season 2 and 4. My very favorite queen is Raven and she is in season 2. So fun!