I don’t know how often I talk about it on here, but my husband is a kickass triathlete. He started it 3+ years ago and is now coaching a Tri 201 class through our local Fleet Feet. Triathlons are his jam.
He’s been trying to get me to give them a tri (pun intended, and overused in this entry) but I have refused for several reasons. The most important being:
1) I’m not sure if I technically “know how to ride a bike”
2) I dislike swimming because I kinda freak out when I can’t touch the bottom and I don’t do open water.
3) I don’t handle stress like “transition areas” well.
But Donnie just kept on about it as my running became more and more solid. And I understood! I talked him into doing ultras with me this year! But all that required was more running, not learning actual new skills.
Eventually, I gave in. I made him a deal and said I’d sign up for the beginner’s triathlon class at Fleet Feet and do one triathlon that occurs IN A POOL.
Tonight is our kickoff meeting and I am in such denial that this is happening that I:
1) Haven’t even looked at the bike I’m borrowing from my sister-in-law
2) Haven’t bought any sort of swimming gear
3) Haven’t registered for the actual triathlon I’m supposed to be doing.
Here’s the thing, I’m very in tune with my anxieties. I don’t take left turns when I can avoid them because the stress of someone on the road near me wanting me to go when I was not comfortable going, is enough to give me nightmares. Therefore, clogging up a swim lane or the road because I’m going slow IS THE WORST THING I COULD POSSIBLY IMAGINE.
I honest-to-god have no hope that I’ll enjoy this triathlon. I think I’ll cross the finish line crying over the stress and never want to do it again. I’m going to be open-minded, but my anxieties are VERY REAL and even just thinking about doing a triathlon brings them to the surface.
But I promised my husband I’d do it once. So I will. Race day is June 22nd. As long as I survive and finish, my husband can never bug me about doing another one ever again.
And then I can stick to my easy challenges like the 12-hour run I have in two weeks.
(What the WHAT?)