This has been a transition week, I feel. This past week and the weeks to come are just transitioning us to the next bit parts of our lives in several areas. I find this all very overwhelming and stressful and have practically eaten myself into oblivion with the associated anxiety. Hooray for stress-fueled weight gain!
- Mom got her treatment outline for her cancer. It’s the FOLFOX regimen, for those of you who have had any experience with colorectal cancer. All of that starts with her on May 19th and continues for 6 months, according to the current plan. I’m hoping to make it up there to be with her sometime in June. I feel a bit crappy I can’t be there for everything but she’s lucky enough to have a great support base in Knoxville. Obviously my inability to make friends came from my Father. My Mom’s always been a pro at it. Which helps her out when her kids are in different states and unable to be there when she needs us.
- LilZ is about to enter the exam prep for his Freshman year. He’ll be out of school before the 1st of June. Freshman year. DONE. We’ll be making our second attempt to get his learning permit, since we learned the first time he inherited my ability to screw up multiple choice tests by rationalizing EVERY SINGE ANSWER. I have one college professor in particular who marveled at my ability to ace the essays and bomb the “easy parts” of his tests.
- We’re about 10 days from getting the POD for our home which means I’ve been getting our house “POD READY” as I like to call it. Boxing up the crap we won’t need the next few months. Taking all of the personalized photos off shelves and walls and replacing them with my own photography. (Sidenote: This is kinda cool, to be forced to hang the photos I’m insecure about on the walls. I realized: They’re kinda good.) Removing excess pieces of furniture, decluttering. It’s very weird to be fixing up the house to put it on the market. So many things we’re finally doing we always meant to do before. Like find something to hang above the TV. Five years we’ve been debating it. This week? One trip to Hobby Lobby and it was done.
- We’re shopping around for houses. We are fortunate enough to be able to carry two mortgages for a short while if we need to, and we’ve done enough upgrades to our own home that we’re confident in being able to sell it for what we need, so we could actually put an offer in on a house in the next few weeks. This means I’ve been going to see houses and imagining my family living in them. This is a very weird feeling. Especially since these houses are bigger. (But also older, because we can’t afford a HUGE upgrade.) There is one house I found which may actually give me space to set up my sewing machine full-time! I could actually learn how to sew. And in that house? It would be in a nook under a window. Sewing in a nook under a window? Is that me? Yes. I would like it to be.
So, big changes in our lives. Big journeys. Long paths. It’s very weird to be going through all of these things at one time. To know that in 6 months I will have a mother who fought cancer, a new house, a sophomore in high school and a sewing table. This is me thinking positive. Because I want my cancer-free Mom to come teach me how to sew in my nook under the window.