Pregnant

Pregnancy Brain.

E took some pregnancy pictures for me and I’m very disappointed to report that I basically shit all over his beautiful efforts by having a mental breakdown hating my pregnant body. Not only am I bad at self-love but I let that make me a terrible mother too.

So, in his honor, I’m going to share all of the beautiful pictures he took and I’m going to love them all while I’m posting them.

In my defense, I will say that this last month of pregnancy has gotten me really emotional. I don’t feel like I’m in control of any of my feelings.

For example:

OnStar commercial airs on the radio where some girl has pushed the button because her Mom had a seizure and she wrecked the car. I start crying (like I do often with those damn commercials) and then go into some tirade about how it’s so hard to be a perfect Mom all the time! Much less if your epileptic! Or pregnant! And I ranted about how much harder it is to be pregnant with a toddler to care for because they don’t understand! And then I cry even harder.

Here’s the kicker: I’m the only one in the car.

Essentially? I’ve lost my freakin’ mind.

So, If you see a large and sneezy pregnant woman with dark circles and big bags under her eyes in the produce department at the grocery store crying while holding an orange angrily in her hand? Just move along and say a silent prayer for her poor family.

24 thoughts on “Pregnancy Brain.”

  1. OH- how I remember! my youngest two are twenty-two months apart…and I was also managing an eleven year old going thru puberty. Looking back- I am not sure how I did it. I remember feeling EXACTLY how you feel. Hang in there.
    It gets better!

  2. That photo is absolutely beautiful. When you look at it for awhile, all these details just keep on popping out–the green in your necklace repeated in the green paint, for instance.

    And thanks to you, I am now a PW addict. I love everything about her site, ESPECIALLY those nifty actions!

    May is here. You’ll soon not be pregnant anymore, so just hang in there. AndyZ will be here soon!

  3. That’s a gorgeous photo! I wish I had had the courage to do something like that. I only have one photo from my first pregnancy. Best wishes for you in these last weeks.

  4. That photo is gorgeous!

    Being sick when you’re pregnant is always ten times worse that “normal”! I had bronchitis when I delivered Ben, and so I had to wear a oxygen/mist mask his first 2 days of life…how to scar a kid! With Sarah, I had an abscessed tooth, and had to have a partial root canal 2 weeks before I delivered her…without freezing! EEK!

    Hang in there, it will soon be done, and you’ll have a beautiful baby in your arms, and this beautiful photo to look at!

  5. Hey Zoot…I hear you..but listen, yesterday as I was sobbing my exhausted ass through the day (due to have mine the day after you) and feeling sorry for myself and my own lack of sleep, etc, etc, etc, you actually entered my mind and I was in awe at how you managed to have all this energy to spend with your toddler and do all this stuff when I can barely get my butt out of the house!

    You’re doing spectacular compared to me..don’t kick yourself too hard. We’re almost there, woman.

    Hang in there.

  6. i *LOVE* this picture. LURVE even.

    this point in any pregnancy is so difficult. i hear ya, i’m right there with you. i’m over it. and also so so sad knowing that this will be my last pregnancy and i’ll never again know the feeling of a baby trying to break my ribs or puncture my spleen…from the inside.

  7. That is a great picture. (did you take out your belly button? ) This is the hardest part, where your crankyness almost out does the egarness to meet the baby. Just a little longer though!!

  8. It’s funny – I was at an art festival here in Nashville this weekend and saw someone I would have sworn was you. I actually thought about walking up to her…then realized she wasn’t 9 months pregnant. Oops!

    I’m not looking forward the miserable portion of pregnancy…I’m not loving it at almost 7 months but mostly because of the inconvenience not because of any major annoyance (damn I want a beer and a cup of real coffee!)

  9. OMG, that’s ADORABLE Zoot! I LOVE IT!!

    And I was thinking the same thing as Christina… did you edit it so much that you now lack a belly button!? LOL

  10. That’s a beautiful photo! Once you are no longer pregnant, I’m sure you will love it. The last few weeks are just the worst. I remember feeling the exact same way. It’s not at all crazy — normal as can be. But it still sucks, of course.

  11. Look at your beautiful belly!!! πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ Love the light in that photo and that NikkiZ is painting love (or splotches :)) on AndyZ. πŸ™‚ Best. Photo. Ever. Zoot. πŸ™‚

  12. Beautiful photos. When I was pregnant I kept trying to get my 2-year-old to take photos with me and the belly, but he wasn’t very cooperative. I guess I should have used paint!

  13. What a fun idea!! πŸ™‚ That is a great shot. I hear you on the exhuastion thing. I haven’t slept more than 4 hours in the past 2 weeks and my body hates me. It has to be 1000 times worse being preggers.

  14. Don’t feel bad about the tears! I am 5 months pregnant and I cry almost EVERY freaking day myself. Don’t Blink by Kenny Chessney makes me bawl EVERYTIME, I was catching up on Bones this weekend and the ending of one of them made me cry, freaking One Tree Hill makes me cry. My poor husband just looks at me like I have lost my ever living lovin mind (I think I have) when ever the tears come up bless his heart. Just think about this YOU can go to the Space and Rocket Center soon and ride the rides, I have to wait until September/October before I can even think about it!!

  15. C’mon hon- he knows you and that you are normally not a mean head so even if you really were mean, he is a smart kid who knows you didn’t mean it. It is good practice for any future pregnant baby momma’s (after his PhD and first million of course). You are a good momma and I bet he knows it.

  16. aw….you’re almost there!!! Pregnancy is hard work. Hang in there πŸ™‚ And of course, I must say…that image is gorgeous!! You guys did such an incredible job..the lighting, colors, composition…beautiful and so creative!!!

  17. This picture is so beautiful that I almost want to be pregnant. Fortunately you reminded me of the lack of sleep and insanity that it implies and I am NOT going back there – I still suffer from ‘baby brain’ forgetfulness and hormonal imbalances (read crying/laughing/yelling for no reason).
    You are nearly there I hope the last few weeks pass in a blur with someone else doing all the hard work and you finding time to enjoy or sleep. Good luck.

  18. I can so relate. Although . . . I don’ t the pregnancy excuse for my tendancy to cry at the drop of a hat!

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