I’m in bed right now after the exact day that I needed. We took a nap after an emotional morning. MrZ and I – just curled up in bed together. Then, I woke up and took LilZ to see Evan Almighty which was EXACTLY the type of movie I needed to see. Funny and sweet. I loved it. Then – we picked up NikkiZ from daycare and headed over to Stace’s house for pizza and beer. There was enough disctraction to keep me strong for my family, but not too much to make me hazy.
I crawled into bed after putting NikkiZ in her crib and started scanning the comments on my last entry. I also had plenty of email as well. I just had to stop. I kept crying and didn’t want to “miss” any of your wonderful words through my tears, so I had to take a break. I just – I just don’t know how to tell you “Thanks” without sounding just generic and superficial. But you all have no idea how much each of your kind words resonated in my heart.
I am lucky because I have two amazing kids asleep under my roof right now. But I’m also lucky because I have hundreds of friends in the computer who send me virtual hugs when I need it most. Some people may think blogging it stupid, but to me? It’s a lifeline. The words and condolescences mean so much – and I hope to eventually say “thanks” to everyone.
But tonight – I’m just going to bed. It’s been a long day. I’m okay. We’re okay. It’s not the best situation – but it’s not the worst. I have an amazing husband and two brilliant children. I am surround by friends and family who love me. And I have you. You who come through at all hours to wish me luck or give me hugs. Thank you.