She did better sleeping last night because hearing people like Karen say it was okay to just nurse her for the sake of sleeping made me feel better because that is what I WANT to do. I guess I just needed someone to remind me it was okay to do that. Yes, in the long run? It may drag out her not sleeping through the night. But for now? It’s a good solution for ME. And that’s all I care about. ME. So, she woke up at one point and MrZ got up to rock her back to sleep for me. I didn’t fight it like I usually do (again – I feel GUILTY if I’m not the one soothing her – WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?) but last night I was so damn tired I just let him take her. Of course, I woke up a little later because she was crying and I just thought “Screw it – she’s getting the boob.” So, I brought her back to bed, nursed her and we both went back to sleep. She woke up several times again but I just used the boob and she went back to sleep.
So – resolution? I didn’t do anything to really solve the problem of her waking up 18 times a night. BUT – she and I both slept better, and in reality? That’s what I wanted. Hopefully the problem will just fix itself and she’ll just stop waking up ever 90 minutes or so. But for now? I need sleep – so she’s getting the boobcifier.
Hee. I just made that up. Get it? BOOBcifier? Like Pacifier? But with the word “boob”? Because I stick it in her mouth to pacify her? BOOBCIFIER. Do you get it? DO YOU? Then why arent you LAUGHING? It’s funny, dammit.
(Maybe I’m not as well rested as I thought I was.)