I don’t know if I’ve gone into the details of problems I had nursing LilZ, but let’s just say I didn’t really produce a whole lotta milk. I dried up easily and rarely (if ever) leaked or experienced that painful FULL feeling. I did the best I could, supplementing with formula after about 3 months and then stopping completely at 9 months. The entire thing was a struggle and I never really felt like we got in a good groove. This has made me very worried about NikkiZ’s nursing situation since I have to go back to work when she is 12 weeks old.
My first sign that things may be different happened last week. I called MrZ and said “Guess what? My boob is leaking!!!!” and we were both VERY excited. I never seemed to have EXTRA milk with LilZ, so the fact that I was leaking? Gave me hope that things would be better this time. I have even worn nursing pads a few times, which I NEVER did with LilZ.
I also have TWO manual pumps at home to prepare for going back to work. I’ve been testing them out whenever I feel full. Unfortunately, they don’t do CRAP. This has really depressed me. I mean, REALLY depressed me because if I can’t pump, what the hell am I going to do?
But guess what I called MrZ to say today? “Guess what I’m looking at? A bottle of milk from MY BOOB!” Yes, it is a miracle. I pumped almost 4 oz of milk out of ONE boob today! Can you believe it? I just am beside myself with joy. My boobs are WORKING! They are doing what they are supposed to do!
(Yes. I almost posted a picture of the bottle of milk to show you.)
When the milk finally started flowing I almost cried. NO LIE. I really want to nurse NikkiZ as close to 12 months as possible, but unless I can keep my milk supply going by pumping, it won’t be an option. So, when I saw that bottle filling up? I was beside myself with pride! PRIDE FOR MY BOOBS!
At least the right boob. Word is still out on whether the left one will cooperate or not.
It’s just a good example that your body changes with every pregnancy, if you struggled breast feeding with one kid, don’t assume you’ll have the exact problems with the next kid!