October 25th, 8:24pm
That was before….
This is DURING. Actually – this is BEFORE as well. So far, I’m here but nothing has happened. They have me strapped into the monitors, but no cervical treatment (TMI?) yet. I’m very anxious and nervous and excited, and FAT. JEEEZUS. Did you see how FAT I am in that picture? And my hospital gown is broken. But – I have a feeling I wont care about that later.
I’ll try to update again later…after the cervical softening is done. Woo! Hoo!
Update from 2020: Back in 2005 it made sense to post new entries throughout the night but for the sake of this blog cleanup I’m going to combine all of the entries from that night into this one post and just time stamp them!
Well. I’m all settled. I have my IV in, they gave me my cervical softening tablet (that hurt like HELL) and MrZ is making his bed. We’re going to try to get some sleep before my next dose at 1am of the cervical softening junk. I’m feeling a bit more uterine activity in the form of cramping and what not, but nothing exciting. NikkiZ is moving around like a maniac, obviously aware something is happening.
Two things of note before I TRY to sleep:
#1 – MrZ left the toilet seat up in the LDR bathroom. I told him that does NOT need to happen again. Just for tonight, lets try to remember to put the seat DOWN. Heh.
#2 – When we left LilZ at his grandparents, he whispered in my ear as he said goodbye, “I’m trying not to cry…” It about broke my heart because I know he is worried about us. Keep him in your thoughts through all of this too.
C’ya in the morning (unless sleep is impossible, then I’ll see you in an hour).
Well, I’ve been watching the monitor that is keeping track of my uterus, and it seemed to be showing contractions the same time I was feeling pain, but I didn’t believe I was actually having contractions until the nurse confirmed it. So, guess what? I’m having contractions! I’m in pain! Woo! That pig semen stuff really works.
(If you missed it before, Dr. Google told me the cervical softening agent is derived from pig semen. Yum.)
I don’t know if this means I”m in “labor” or not, like…will I get to skip the Pitocin and just let my body progress? But it’s something. Something that is keeping me AWAKE. Heh.
Watching the monitor is incredibly addicting…I’m having these contractions every couple of minutes…but I’m still able to talk (and blog) through them, so they obviously aren’t THAT bad, but it’s all very exciting.
Aren’t you excited? And do you finally believe me that I’m liveblogging my labor? At some point this will stop, I’m sure, but thanks for keeping me company while I can still blog. Oh – and in case you havent noticed? I’m totally NOT proofreading or spell checking these entries. I’m excused, right?
P.S. I’m having a contraction RIGHT NOW.
October 26, 12:19am
I finally shut up about an hour or so ago so MrZ could get some sleep. My contractions have been about two minutes apart for the past two hours. They hurt, I’m using my breathing, but they are not enough for me to wake MrZ up yet. I don’t know if this is a sign of “labor” or not. It’s very weird, because under normal circumstances? 2 minutes apart would be VERY close and mean I was deep into labor, I have NO idea what it means tonight. Hopefully? It means I’ll have the baby in five minutes.
I’m very sleepy, but I can’t seem to get any sleep due to the aforementioned contractions. (Having one right now. Hang on.) Okay, yeah, so no sleep. I am trying though, I promise. They havent gotten any stronger in the last hour, or closer together, so I’m kinda pessimistic that they signify progress.
I get another cervical softener in about 30 minutes. We’ll see what happens then.
In the meantime: I just got a warning that I’m about to exceed my bandwidth, so my site may go down temporarily (sorry) so if you are still up with me? You may have to fill everyone in tomorrow. Of course, its their own damn fault for SLEEPING while I’m in labor!
Just kidding…I don’t think I’m actually in labor yet. Who the hell knows. Modern medicine is very strange.
Cant talk long, drunk and woozy from sleeping medicine. The stuff didnt help a lot. I’m stilll feeling contractions. Bah. no sleep. Also feel really drunk. that cant be good.
cervix is softening and effacing a bit, still 1cm dialated. Still scheduled Pitocin drip at 6am. Wish me luck and hope me sober.
MrZ is still sleeping!
Update from 2020: The next post is about her birth because shit got crazy around 6am that morning!