You know, I’ve written this entry a bazillion times right now. It is actually 10/24 – the day BEFORE my wedding anniversary – but I am worried (read: HOPING) that I’ll go into labor before tomorrow, so I wanted to have my anniversary entry written. I am having a hard time with it this year. I think it is because the last 9 months I have grown so much MORE in love with my husband, that I just can’t seem to figure out how exactly to express that.
I used to think that the beginning of a relationship was the best. I think that is why I was convinced I would never get married again after my divorce, because how can you commit to something that is just going to go downhill for the rest of your life? I loved MrZ more the day he proposed to me, than I did the day I fell in love with him. I loved him more the day we got married than I did the day he proposed. And I love him now MORE than the day we got married. And I can tell you this honestly…I was filled with so much love for him on our wedding day, I would have never dreamed it could have gotten stronger.
But it has. And I know that with the upcoming year, it will continue to grow. And this? Is what I just can not believe. Just when I think, there is no way I could love him more than I do now, my love grows stronger. I don’t know who in the hell I should thank for bringing MrZ to me, but I thank them.
So – MrZoot – I love you more now than I did two years ago. Not a day goes by where I don’t, at some point in time, feel like I don’t deserve you. You treat me like a princess, even when I’m acting like a troll. You harp on my beauty when I’m 60lbs overweight and gassy. You make me smile when you’ve had the suckiest day in the world. You watch really BAD television with me because you know it makes me happy. You hang out and talk to me in the bathroom while I take a bath, even though I make you do so with the curtain closed because of my own insecurities. You tolerate the fact that I don’t make left turns.
I wish I could really have written and entry to do justice for what you’ve done for me in the short two years we’ve been married. But just know that I love you with every ounce of my soul. I love you so much that it hurts sometimes, and I hope that I make you as happy as you make me.
Happy Anniversary. Here’s to hoping we start year number three with me in immense amounts of pain.