Embarassment has been the topic of conversation a lot in our house over the last few weeks. LilZ is starting to be embarassed more by things that people around him do. I expect that is pretty natural at this age. I think back to some of the ways my parents embarassed me, and I feel AWFUL for the way I would react. One time, I actually sat somewhere DIFFERENT than my Dad in a movie theater. That, is quite possibly, one of my rudest/bitchiest moments EVER and I feel TERRIBLE for it today.
But, because I can remember those feelings, I know not to take it too personally when LilZ tells me something might have embarassed him. MrZ and I were talking last night about it, and we were discussing other kids we knew and how LilZ REALLY doesn’t embarass as easily as they do. He’s pretty tolerant of all of us. Then? MrZ said this:
“You would have made my brother, sister and I cry from embarassment as kids if you were our Mom.”
You know? He has a point. I am a pretty embarassing mom. I’ve got visible tatoos, I freak out over Harry Potter, I insist upon pajama movie nights, and I do the Hokey Pokey with my son at my OWN WEDDING. As a PERFORMANCE. I am quite a handful. And none of it has really phased LilZ. As a matter of fact? A lot of it was his idea! But, I couldn’t imagine parenting any other way, so I am so glad that LilZ has been there every step of the way, enjoying my insanity.
Of course now? As we enter puberty? That is another story. But that’s okay – it was a good run – I think I got most of the goofiness out of me, and if not? Let’s just hope NikkiZ doesn’t embarass easily either.