My Reproductive Nightmare, Pregnant

Prayers Needed

MrZoot told me I was not allowed to be funny with this entry. So. No funny business.

I woke up this morning to a good portion of bleeding. Including at least one clot. This was about 5:15am. My doctor’s office opens at 8:15, so we had 3 hours to assume the worst. I cried, and screamed, and cried, and screamed some more. We went to the doctor’s office at 9:45 for an ultrasound.

The baby is still alive and moving around. We cried even more when we saw him just rolling over and doing fine. Unfortunately, they also saw a huge blood clot the size of the baby, right above my placenta. So, as of right now, the baby is fine. BUT – that blood clot is not a good sign. It could be nothing related to the baby or the pregnancy, and could dissolve back into the uterus not problem. Or – this pregnancy could be on the way out and we are on the verge of a miscarriage. As of right now? We can’t tell.

But – we saw the baby move, we saw the heartbeat, and for now, we are counting our blessings and holding on to whatever hope we can.

I am on bedrest today. If no more bleeding occurs, I can go to work tomorrow, but must be resting the remaining of the days. My next ultrasound is at 8:45am Thursday morning and then, they’ll be able to tell us more.

Keep us in your prayers. We have hit the lowest of lows and the highest of highs all in just about six hours. We gave up and mourned the loss or our baby, and then we saw hope again with the motion of our baby. It’s been a rough day.

But we’re home, we have fresh fruit, sweet animals, and at least a dozen episodes of MacGyver recorded on our TiVo. We’ll be fine.

129 thoughts on “Prayers Needed”

  1. All the Zoots are in my thoughts and prayers. Get lots of rest, pet the sweet animals, and remember if MacGyver can escape a building with a paper clip and some string – then you will be ok, too.

  2. Coming out of lurkdom to say I’m wishing the best for all the Zoots. I’ve been pulling for you and reading your blog for a few months.


  3. You guys get every single one of my prayers and best wishes for the rest of the week. Nothing anyone says will make you feel better, but we’re all hoping for the best for you guys. I’m so sorry that you have to go through such a stressful time with this! I hope that there is good news in the very, very near future! Hang in there!

  4. I’ve been saying Hail Marys, cos I figure that’s one person who knows how special motherhood is up there… I love you guys, and you rest all you need! If you need me to go into work and dress up as you so you can rest, let me know!

  5. Zoot (and Zoot family) my well wishes and good vibes are directed at the three of you for the next foreseable future!

    Sorry this is so shitty, I hope that all three of you get good news really soon. Hang in there, we’re all rooting for you!

  6. Rest well, sweet Zoot, and I am praying for all of you and your family – for angels to be all around you.

  7. Girl…you know you’re on the very top of my prayer list…and you’ll stay there until we know all is well. No words, of course, can touch on how I love you guys…and am always here for you.

  8. like you have to ask us to keep you in our thoughts and prayers. you’re already there girl. all 4 of you. (and yes i said 4.)

  9. Zoot….I’m assuming the clot is similar to a subchorionic hemmorhage. I had one as well; while mine was not a successful outcome (I only wish I could tell you that it was) I was assured over and over by my doctor, the other doctors in the practice AND the ER docs/ultrasound tech/nurses that it is in fact NOT THAT SCARY (easy for them to say). They said that normally after some bed rest it IS reabsorbed and it DOES NOT AFFECT the pregnancy.

    I was afraid there was something going on when you hadn’t posted since Friday…have been worried about you since. Praying that it all goes well. And if you need to talk to someone who’s been there, I’m always around.

  10. OMG, honey, I am so sorry! I am praying for everything to go well for you and that your family will continue to grow!

    My cousin is pregnant 18 weeks right now and JUST got off bedrest as she had a subchrionic hematoma bleeding out and growing with the baby for the past 10 WEEKS. Everything just resolved itself, thank God, and so far, everything is fine.

    So please, take it easy, watch all the TV you want, and know that you have a great support system here in cyberspace. Hugs!

  11. Zoot, I held my breath the entire time I read your entry. I hope everything turns out to be fine. My prayers are with you and your family. Get some rest girl!

  12. Geez that must be so scary. I will pray for you guys. There. I prayed that the clot will be reabsorbed quickly. I’ll send lots of prayers up for you. Get some rest, and consider taking tomorrow off too. Love you.

  13. You’re in my prayers. Sounds like a SCH to me, which I’ve heard good and bad stories about, so fingers are especially crossed. Good luck, stay layed down, and I’m thinking of you.

  14. Oh sweetie, I’m so sorry you have to go through this wretched scare. I’m praying that everything will be alright and that you’ll find out that everything will be alright the absolute soonest.

  15. Oh my. You are all in my thoughts. Hang in there Zoot. Don’t you MOVE from that bed!
    (and I totally read this post AFTER I emailed you this morning).

  16. Sending my prayers…
    (I remember sitting in a doctor’s waiting room full of patients, waiting for my name to be called because I was 5 months pregnant and bleeding. I’ll never forget that feeling of complete “alone-ness” because nothing was within my control. There was a good ending, though, and I’ll pray that there will be a happy ending for you, too!)

  17. Crossing everything again…I’m soooooooooo hoping all works out well for you and the baby and your family. sigh

  18. I’m sending you all my positive energy, love and prayers, Zoot. I am hoping and wishing all is ok for all of you. Hang in there Baby Zoot!!!

  19. The postive side of bedrest is that in 95 days you will be forced to stay home and read Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince!! Bonus.

    Good luck. You are in my thoughts…I’ve got everything crossed and I’m holding my breath just for good measure.

  20. msmaryb – Oklahoma – I'm a native Californian who lives in Oklahoma. I'm a full-time student, pursuing a Bachelors in Anthropology, following which I hope to attain a Masters in Archaeology. I have three kids, one husband, no pets, and a lot of friends - most of whom live inside my computer. I love to read, write, watch tv (shut up, we can't all be brain surgeons), shop, and travel. I'm trying to set foot in all 50 states before I die. I have 38, so far. I love the Beatles and Maroon 5, and if you think those two things are incongruous, well, they are. But that's me. When I love something, I love it 100%. I don't do anything halfway. I want to know everything there is to know, so I'm trying to cram as much into my brain as I can in the short amount of time I'm allotted in this dimension.
    Mary says:

    This is NOT what I wanted to hear today! I am praying, you can bet, as hard as I can.

  21. (((HUGS)))
    I’m here for you! Unfortunately I’m a bit out of the loop because I haven’t had time to get on the internet, but just know that I think about you and Tiny Zoot every day and I’ll pray extra hard that you guys get through this with no problems. I hope all goes well.

  22. like everyone else here, our prayers are w/all of you. rest, try to relax, watch bad tv, don’t stress about the vols losing to top players & tell mr zoot to get off his ass, hijack a krispy kreme truck & pull it up to your door.

  23. Oh, sweetheart. Listen, obviously I have no idea what’s going to happen (as much as I wish I could reassure you with some magic knowledge). BUT. When you have a clotting issue that calls for blood thinners (such as baby aspirin) in pregnancy, what you are experiencing is COMMON. I did aspirin with the girl and heparin injections with the boy and I had clots/hemmorhages WITH BOTH. I asked if the thinners were to blame and the doc said only sort of–without the blood thinners, instead of bleeding I just would’ve had a ginormous clot that killed the baby. Instead, I had bleeding and bedrest on and off… and two live births.

    So. Hang on tight. It’s not time to give up. ((((HUGS))))

  24. Lots of Positive thoughts flowing your way from me… I’ll be praying extra special hard for you tonight ((lots of hugs))

  25. Gah! What a horrible experience! I am sooooo rooting for you babe. Good luck, hugs, smootches, and all that stuff.

  26. I am praying my hardest for the Zoot family. As an aside my best friend had this happen to her ummm about 3 weeks ago now. Clots and everything – like you she freaked and went to the doctor – they did the same tests and heard the same thing. She is 3 weeks post bleeding and clot and scare and doing well now. She has had another ultrasound and things still look fine. Hang tough and the prayers will keep coming!

  27. oh girl… my heart dropped when i read that… i’m sending good thoughts, prayers and energy your way.

    you rest up and let MacGyver do the rest!

  28. Oh man. And here I sent you email bugging you about the site redesigns. Talk about an A number 1 putz.

    Having been through a pregnancy scare, I can imagine what you’re feeling. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

  29. I’m praying for ya girl! And thinking good thoughts. I will send some love your way. I think I will even keep so toes and fingers crossed for you. Now…you….stay in bed and rest and breathe!

  30. I am pretty much a lurker, though I may have commented at one time or the other. Just know I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers!

  31. Oh hon. My thoughts and prayers are yours. I know it doesn’t help, but I am so sorry you have to go through this.

  32. Susan B. – Parker, CO – Owner / Photographer at Susan B. Photography I specialize in High School Senior and Family Portraits. I’m located in Parker and serve the Denver and Colorado Springs, CO areas. Mother 2 amazing children and married over 20+ years. I have a passion for Doritos and Coca-Cola. They are not paying me to write this... :(
    Susan says:

    Thoughts, prayers, carrying a rock in my pocket – anything to help you get through this and wishing the best for you.

  33. I’m crying — AND praying — right now. I hope it all turns out OK. I also want to urge you NOT to go to work. Seriously, PLEASE stay in bed for A LONG TIME. My sister was told to stay in bed during a pregnancy and she miscarried at 19 weeks because she went to work every day (her work was in retail, though, so she was on her feet ALL DAY). But I urge you to just call in sick until you’re in the clear. It’s important enough to do that, especially if you get sick pay. Your work HAS TO understand.

    Big hugs and love to all of you, and especially that little baby fighting inside you.

  34. Oh Zoot. Oh God :-s All my hopes and prayers are now on their way to Alabama, babe.

  35. Oh no! I’d hope to come back here and read more boring. I’m so sorry. Of course, you’re in our prayers. In fact, you never left 🙂 Now you stay in bed and let your hubby spoil you. That’s an order! (((hugs)))

  36. Isn’t it amazing,I’m a total lurker here and I don’t even know you yet obsessively kept coming back to your website all weekend worrying that something had happened to you because there were no updates . Over the last few months of reading your blog I’ve been fervently hoping and praying that all would go well with your pregnancy-those prayers and hopes are continuing. You deserve only good things!

  37. Hoping for nothing but good news. You don’t deserve this. And? There seem to be so many good vibes going your way, that’s gotta be something

  38. Oh my God…I didn’t see this coming at all…I’m sending my good vibes along with everyone else’s….Please get rest today and tomorrow – we’ll all be refreshing like crazy and pulling for you.

  39. Nothing but the best of all wishes to the entire Zoot family. I hope everything will be okay. I believe everything will be okay. You are such a trooper through these times. Take care of yourself.

  40. Hi Miss Z. I am Janet’s cousin MB. I was reading this and wanted you to know that I went through this too with my first. And she is now 28 years old! Try to relax, and take good care of yourself. Feet up, warm caffiene free cup of tea in hand and mind numbing TV. You’re in my thoughts and prayers.

  41. I bled very early in my pregnancy – thought I was miscarrying, went to hospital for an ultrasound and there was a little wiggling baby with a heart still beating. They diagnosed a subchorionic hemorrhage. No bedrest, just pelvic rest, but I took it very easy. At 32 weeks, I woke up in the middle of the night, started hemorrhaging, rushed to the hospital and a few hours later delivered a beautiful baby girl via c-section. She weighed just under 4 lbs but she was breathing on her own. After she was born, they decided I actually had had a partially detached placenta for most if not all the pregnancy, but it was obviously attached enough! When you get to 28 weeks, if there are still issues, MAKE them give you the steroid shots to mature the baby’s lungs. My little preemie is now 4 mths old and 16.5 lbs! 🙂 I will keep you in my prayers and please please stay positive.

  42. I don’t know you from anyone – I lurk in bloglines adn read your posts religiously. you’re funny and entertaining, and i think you’re cool. i wish i had something else to say, but i’ll be thinkin about you. *hugs* prayers, thoughts, and just general good vibe-ness are all going in your direction. 🙂

  43. You have all my good thoughts.

    But I wanted to tell you that my mother had a clot on her placenta while I was a fetus. Of course 26 years ago and being a military family, the amount of high tech ultrasounds were few and far between. She had high fevers and other unexplained symptoms for over a month before I was born. And it wasn’t until I was out and the afterbirth was out did they find the clot which was as big as both me and the placenta. All three of us in one tiny belly. And then the doctor said to my mom that she was lucky. Very lucky.

    While I know it sucks, especially after I’ve followed along with your life and your previous attempts, but I know you can get through this. You’re a very strong woman. And you’re very fortunate to have both the latest technology to tell you what’s up and a very loving and supportive network to be there for you.

    I don’t know if that makes you feel any better, but if I can live through something like that, I have hope for your little one. Please let me know if I can do anything for you.

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