This Is Why I Can’t Have Nice Things
Remember how I took Facebook off my phone? Well, it is still off! Yay! But not because I have great willpower. Nope. I’s only because the app is so large that it requires WiFi to download and the times I’ve been weak, I have had no access to WiFi.
The access to it from my laptop is not as limited. I did put that extension on Chrome that only gives me 3 minutes a day, and that worked for a bit. But then I was having a FB messenger conversation with a parent from Nyoka’s school about a project and I needed more than 3 minutes so I just opened Safari and used that browser instead.
AND IT ALL WENT DOWNHILL FROM THERE.
I was faced with writer’s block this morning and instead of doing something like reading or cleaning or eating breakfast…I found myself numbly scrolling through Facebook. And then I found one of those “vaguebooking” posts where someone says they had to unfollow a page for being cruel and snarky and I spent THE NEXT 30 MINUTES TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT PAGE IT WAS AND WHAT THEY SAID TO WARRANT THE UNFOLLOWING.
(I never figured it out.)
WHY DID I JUST WASTE ALL OF THAT TIME? I mean, this person and I have enough overlapping interests that I’m 100% certain if I had seen the same thing I probably would have had the same reaction. So why go looking for it? Why intentionally try to stress myself out?
I will say that overall my relationship with Facebook has become much more professional. I’m using it for how it is meant to be used, 3 minutes a day I scroll around to see what is going on in my town and I share out interesting events or news. I’m not mindlessly scrolling anymore…UNTIL THIS MORNING.
So, I’ve closed down Safari and I’m not going to use it again unless I have another need for a long conversation via Facebook messenger. 3 minutes has been PLENTY of casual Facebook time otherwise.
It was a nice reminder of why I can’t be left alone, facing writer’s block, with an unlimited amount of Facebook.