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I'm addicted to superhero movies, donuts, craft beer, playing in the woods, and reading YA fiction. I'm a writer by day and a dreamer by night.

Sailor Moon, Boob Sweat, Foot Cramps…OH MY!

It is 2:42am.

There was a time where I used to stay up that late. But now? Now I’m getting up for the day. While I like this life of mine much better than life back then, I do sometimes look at the clock and say: Cool people are still up from the night before.

It’s sad no longer being a cool person.

(HA! I like the implication that I used to be a cool person at some point in time.)

Being a morning person has a HUGE downside. And that is, it’s hard to convince yourself to “go back to sleep” if you wake up any time after 2:30am because that is too close to your normal wakeup time to make it worth it. I actually woke up before 2am, as Wes had a foot cramp. (Sidenote: First draft of this post said “food cramp” and that made me giggle for some reason.) I told myself if I could get back to sleep by 2:30 then I’d be fine, but the quick remedies of a heating pad and a massage did not work and he wanted to take a hot bath. So, it was 2:15am before I was finally getting him back to sleep.

Go back to sleep in the next 15 minutes and you’re golden!

Except that I couldn’t. I was awake. I had started thinking about what I was going to blog about, and what work I could cram in before the 8am award’s ceremony in Nikki’s class. I was thinking about what I would wear to the Award’s ceremony as Nikki’s second grade class has the most beautiful and fashionable set of Mothers I’ve ever seen in my LIFE. I always feel like a sloth when I’m at events at her school. I started to think about the wet clothes in the dryer (my dryer only dries in 15 minute increments) and the birthday presents that needed wrapping by Wednesday. Fifteen minutes ticked by and BAM! I’m still not asleep. And since I often wake up before 4am, then I was getting close to that hour mark and, well, who can go back to sleep for just an hour?

Not me.

I find myself staring at a blank blogging screen at 2:42am. I’ve not been writing as much lately as I used to, and I think that’s because more real world people know about my blog and I’m second guessing a lot of my blogging topics in case they’re reading it. Do I want to blabber about the sudden revisit of the sadness over not having any more kids and the anger over having a body that refused to give me the family I wanted? No. My real world friends will think that’s too personal. Do I talk about the 8lbs I gained and how I am so angry at myself and how I watch my husband so disciplined and feel like he is ashamed of me? No. My real world friends will think that’s too insane. Do I talk about the stress I feel that I’m not spending enough time on academics with my kids outside of school?

NO WAY. That’s just boring as shit.

I need to learn how to turn that off so I can write again because I think the cathartic ritual of daily blogging is therapeutic and a lot of my emotional instability lately is due to not having that crutch to depend on. I mean, let’s be honest, just because my real world friends know about the blog doesn’t mean they’re reading it. And let’s be honest again, they’re all my friends because they’re a little bit insane anyway, why would I hide that just because they might pop over while they drink their morning coffee?

I’m going to go back to my NaBloPoMo habits and just write. If I have a topic on hand I want to discuss? I’ll do it. But if I don’t? I’ll write anyway. Not processing my days on this blog is having hugely negative side effects on my life, so I need to just get back into the habit. Even if I’m just writing about boob sweat, it’s something, right?

OH MY GOD. BOOB SWEAT SEASON IS HERE. HATE.

And really, aren’t these random stream-of-consciousness blog entries the BEST?

No. No they are not. I know that. You know that. But at least it’s something, right?

I do want to end this on a few, fun, notes of pop culture.

Sailor Moon

10350444_10152424082947188_6479818951402335112_nE stumbled upon Sailor Moon as a kid and I loved it dearly. We only watched the Americanized version we found at Blockbuster, and only the few VHS tapes they had, but we watched those a million times over. We watched them with some of my college friends and E would assign us all characters. I have VERY fond memories of this weird show and I’m so excited that Hulu is bringing the original episodes in all of their weirdo glory back to my accessible reach.

Late Night TV

latenight It is weird how addicted I am to late night television now that it’s hosted by Jimmy Fallon and Seth Meyers. I watched the old Jimmy Fallon show periodically but I do NOT miss his shows now. Of course, I’m watching them at 5:30am when they show up on Hulu – BUT STILL. I adore them! If it’s a guest I don’t care about I might not watch the interview, but I always watch his solo stuff in the beginning. And Seth Meyers – I watch his interviews even if it’s someone I don’t care about because he’s a GREAT interviewer! He interviewed SJP and that Vogue lady about the MET Ball thingy and I was ENGROSSED. It seemed so interesting! What the hell? And he seems so well-prepared, like when he interviewed Eddie Izzard he asked about a lot of the cool things I knew about but didn’t think would be “top” billing on interview questions. Like his 40+ marathons in a row! He did a really good job with that interview. But yeah! Me! A Late Night person now, who knew? (A late night/early morning person?)

A Book For The Favorites Shelf

download (3)Are we friends on Goodreads? If so, you maybe have seen my “FAVORITES” shelf that I created. I’m weird about rating books because I feel like 3 means I did not like it so if I even remotely liked it – it’s at least a 4 star book. Therefore, it’s hard to know how MUCH I liked it because I give so many books 4 and 5 stars. BUT! If I put it on my FAVORITES shelf? Then it’s top-notch and I just added The Storied Life of A. J. Fikry to my FAVORITES shelf a few weeks ago. It is SO GOOD. A book for book lovers, for sure! It was an easy read and several things didn’t happen that I expected to happen which I found WONDERFULLY surprising. It’s lovely to expect something formulaic and then BAM! It doesn’t happen! If you’re looking for a nice easy read that is not too saccharine but just saccharine enough? This is it! Check it out!

ALRIGHT THEN. This seems like a wonderful assortment of nonsense for a blog post…MY WORK HERE IS DONE.

9 comments on “Sailor Moon, Boob Sweat, Foot Cramps…OH MY!

  1. I’m having the other extreme – having been up every night in the middle of the night, last night I slept straight through – I’d be grateful but I feel all out of sorts now as it’s become part of the normal to wake up in the night lol.

  2. I’m glad you’re back. I was worried about you last week!

    I have been on the waiting list for that book at the library and just got a notification that it is my turn to have it. I just finished the second book in a trilogy that I had been waiting to read until the final book came out. I loved the first book and the second one was so brutal and hard for me to read that I’m not sure I’m going to read the final one now. So I’m looking forward to reading A.J. Fikry. Thank you for recommending it.

  3. yay! you’re going back to posting every day! that just made my tuesday all the better! 🙂

  4. Damn, lost my comment by looking up where you live…

    Again: just said to my colleage at work today that it is so strange that you read someones blog (yours) for so long that i feel like we’re real life friends. But now i know that your real life friends keep you from blogging i hate them! Would not want to be one of them (even if we could, because of the distance between ALABAMA (right?) and here), because that would seriously dissapoint your blog readers.

    In other words… Missed you!

  5. Don’t worry about what to wear, just get there on time. Somehow I had the time wrong for Kinder Graduation and I TOTALLY missed it. Huge Giant Mom Fail. And to make it all worse, he’s the dreaded middle child, so this is really just the beginning of his neglected over-looked sad childhood.

  6. Delurking to say that I JUST finished The Storied Life of AJ Fikry last night and LOVED it! I have to thank you for all of the book recommendations on your blog over the years, I’ve really enjoyed almost everything you’ve suggested here and I never would have found some of those authors without you. And it made me even more cool in my teenager’s eyes when I knew about John Green (thanks to you) before she and her friends did! 🙂 I guess I’m going to have to get on GoodReads and figure out how to friend you now….

  7. I’m reading that right now! I just got started but I can tell I’m going to love it. need to wait for the weekend so I don’t spend all of my limited sleep time reading.

    Also, have you considered that people who know you in real life might be able to relate to some of your things, and be comforted that they aren’t alone? You’re awesome, and I’ve never even met you. I think people who get to read your thoughts AND have real conversations with you must be very lucky.

  8. From this in-the-computer stranger, I’m glad that you’re back! I really look forward to your daily posts… I can relate to you so much… reading about your struggles, joys, etc is comforting, because I struggle with the same issues!

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