• Wrangling My Focus Around Big Goals.

    I set my reading goal in 2019 for 60 books a year instead of 100 because I think I can manage 5 books a month on top of some other big projects I’m hoping to complete this year. I have already hit my 5 books for January and I told myself I needed to make some progress on some of those big looming projects this week so I told myself I need a week of ZERO FACEBOOK.

    I opened up my laptop this morning and without thinking, I clicked on FACEBOOK on my bookmark bar and BOOM:

    What the BlockSite extension shows you.

    I had set up the Blocksite Sunday to not let me on Facebook and while I knew in my BRAIN that I was avoiding the time-suck that is Facebook this week, I still ended up clicking that button on instinct which is maybe A SIGN THAT I SPEND TOO MUCH TIME ON FACEBOOK.

    I find that the lure of social media is much stronger when I have big, amorphous projects looming. I’m great with a task list, but big goals without clear paths forward and I get too overwhelmed and so I spend 2 hours surfing social media instead of just taking any bite out of the elephant to begin with.

    (I hope you know the metaphor I’m alluding too or you’re going to think my vegetarianism took a dark turn.)

    I also find myself using social media in those “buffer” areas in my day. Like, if I’ve mopped the floors and don’t really have time to start another task before picking up the kids…I’ll just pull out my phone and scroll to kill the time.

    Whereas if I added those 30-minute buffers up during my day I’d have several hours extra to do stuff…just not in one chunk of time so they get wasted.

    It’s not that I’m trying to place value in my productivity – that’s opposite of the self-love mantras I’m trying to train myself on. I just have these goals I really want to work towards – Launching a business and Writing a book – and they both need a lot of time and attention but they don’t have a clear set of task lists to use and so my anxiety pushes me towards social media instead of towards my goals where I can make any progress whatsoever.

    So this week? No Facebook and no reading (which is not a bad way to fill time, but it doesn’t help me with my goals) for the next 5 days and I’ll see if I make any more progress towards those big goals or if I start substituting more Twitter and Instagram to fill those voids!