Overdue.

I’m sitting at the car dealership getting my car serviced and it’s 1000 miles overdue. At least according to the flashing numbers that count down my oil life. The warnings to get my oil change start when there’s only 15% of the oil life left. I watched that 15% dissolve into 10% and 5% and 1% and then it started counting down the negative miles I was driving on 0% oil life.

The funny thing is, those number appear where the odometer normally shows. My car believes once it’s time to get an oil change (at 15% life) that I need to be aware of that more than my mileage. This annoys me because I don’t like the reminder so the second I start the car, I push the odometer reset button which clears the alert.

I’ve been doing this for almost a month. Clearing the message to tell me to do something.

I’m a chronic procrastinator. But it’s strange. I don’t procrastinate everything, but once I delay something beyond when I “should” do it…it’s like I can’t do the thing until IT IS BEYOND OVERDUE. 99.99% of these chores and tasks could be easily done yet I prefer to stress about it until well beyond when the task should be done.

EXAMPLES: I either put up clothes the second I get them out of the the dryer, or I put them in a pile in my room and then I add the next 4+ loads to those same piles until someone loudly complains about being out of clothes. I either turn in my library book a week before it’s due, or a month after. (That doesn’t make me feel so bad since the money goes to a good cause.)

I either do it immediately, or I push it beyond late.

I’m not lazy, I live a busy life, but it’s like I like to self-sabotage. Or, more realistically, I can’t relax without stress in my life. Like there’s a part of me that needs stress and so I push it on myself when it’s unnecessary.

You would think that the awareness would help keep me from falling down these procrastination traps, but it doesn’t. Well, it causes me to sometimes do the thing IMMEDIATELY, but I still put things off once I miss that “IMMEDIATELY” window. There’s no middle ground for me. I either do it long before it’s required or I do it weeks after.

Anyone else?