So, I was doing my daily run of YouTube videos last night. I watched the latest from Vlogbrothers and I honest-to-god cried.
Videos like this is why I’m constantly berating myself for not becoming a nerdfighter earlier. I read Looking For Alaska awhile back and enjoyed it, but I didn’t branch out to the world of the author and his brother until I read The Fault In Our Stars. At least once a week I read something from Nerdfighteria; or from the Green brothers and think, “DAMN. Why haven’t I been following these guys and their community forever? WHY AM I SO LATE TO THE GAME? They make me want to be a BETTER PERSON.”
John put it perfectly, writing about the Nerdfighter community on his tumblr:
I guess the real metaphor is not you-can-only-make-stuff-if-people-hold-you-up; the real metaphor here is that together-things-happen-that-can-never-happen-alone, which is a very important thing for an introverted and socially anxious person like me to realize. I guess these days this is a politically charged statement, but it seems to me manifestly true: You make nothing alone. Human beings are not mere competitors, and human life is not merely competition. We are collaborators. To be human is to catch the falling person.
YES. And why did it take so long for me to find this community? WHY? I mean – I don’t contribute shit to it. But I am inspired by everyone who does, especially Hank and John. And while I may not add anything to the collaboration, I like to support those who do.
This was the latest video that made me cry from Hank.
He spoke to my heart even though he was speaking to a 16-year old girl. I love his commentary on the value of what we contribute to the world. I watched the video 10 times and kept thinking, “YES. YES. YES. YES.” His words have been echoing in my head a lot lately as I wonder if I’ve contributed anything significant to the world in my 37 years of life…which is more than twice the opportunities of the 16-year old he’s addressing in the video.
These guys? They move me. And their community gives me hope because it’s so predominantly full of young girls. If the world is dominated by Adult Nerdfighters in 5-10 years? It can only be a better place.
And I constantly wanting to join in. I want to comment on the videos, but I’m too scared of the YouTube comment sections. I want to make my own videos, or write my own essays. I want to go to gatherings of Nerdfighters or see Hank play his music somewhere. I want to do more than just admire from the sidelines! But I don’t, because I’m a chicken. And luckily, their words still inspire me in my own life to Decrease World Suck. And that’s really what Nerdfighters are trying to do. So, I keep using my own little piece of real estate on the web, and my own simple life as a Mom in Alabama to spread The Awesome in my own way.
So…I’m feeling all of these sappy things about the Vlogbrothers and Nerdfighteria and then I saw this video on Hank’s Channel about pockets.
And what did I do? I COMMENTED.
That’s how much Hank and John inspire me…so much that they bring me to finally join the community and participate in the conversation…about pockets.
It’s better than nothing, right?
Also – this is why you’ll never see me write anything complaining about people who don’t comment. Because I AM THE WORST. Unless I can think of something perfect to say (about pockets?) I am too chicken to comment. So…for all of you who maybe have never commented here because you don’t know how to contribute? THAT’S FINE! No pressure. Maybe some day I’ll write something thought-provoking (about pockets) that will finally inspire you to comment too.
Because…seriously? Girl pockets SUCK. And that’s some serious social commentary right there.