I know! I’m a revolutionary.
But seriously! I know they suck for the obvious Weekend Is Over, Work Week Is So Long type of reasons. I get that. Mondays have always sucked for that reason. But it occurred to me last night that Mondays are always my problem days when it comes to emotional eating.
Something about the release of the weekend being over gives me this weird PTSD sensation on Monday. Especially lately. We have very busy weekends. This weekend? I woke up at 4am on Saturday. Did housework. Ran 10 miles with a friend. Went to cheer on more friends at a local 5K. Went to soccer. Went to a roller-skating party. Barely made it with both eyes open long enough to put the kids to bed. Then Sunday? We ran 19 miles and then we had Nikki’s family birthday dinner celebration at our house.
Come Monday? It was NOT alright.
And it occurred to me that the crazier my weekends are? The more I eat on Monday. It’s like I can’t cope with the let down of the chaos well so I just binge. And then – if I have a stressful week ahead like I do this week? The two pile on and I eat 5000 calories in one day.
This is (unfortunately) not an exaggeration.
So…do you know what makes this doubly sucky? Because I do the same thing you all do that we’ve discussed here a million times. I use Mondays as my “START” days. If I screw up in the week I think, Oh well, this week has blown. Let’s just throw it all out the window and start over Monday. And you know what that means if Monday is the blown day, right? It means that I have ZERO good days before I give up the week entirely to my emotional eating.
WOO HOO FOR NEGATIVE CYCLICAL BEHAVIOR!
I’m terribly depressed because I was doing very well. I had a few bad days last week because it was stressful (MY KID HAD AUDITIONS. THOSE ARE ALWAYS STRESSFUL WEEKS.) so I was using Monday as my “START” day and – well – you know how that went.
So now I have to try to beat myself into submission and NOT just throw this week out the window (WE HAVE MORE AUDITIONS THIS WEEK) and try my BEST to just let Monday’s failures stand alone. Because – let me tell you – eating 5000 calories a day more than once a week? Is exactly how someone puts 8lbs back on in 4 weeks…in case you were wondering.
Emotional eating just SUCKS. This is why they call them “eating disorders” and I’m just lucky mine is balanced out by a fitness habit that keeps the weight gain in check or else I’d be screwed. Using food as medication for exhaustion, anxiety, and depression is only better than when I used to use cigarettes for all of those things. And some days, I feel like it was easier to quit smoking.
What about you? Do you do the EAT ALL THE FOODS on Monday after a crazy weekend or before a stressful week? Should we just sedate ourselves until Tuesday and see if that works?