It’s 4:13am and I’ve essentially been up all night. AGAIN. This is day 2 of my antibiotics but so far my cough is getting worse. It is now associated with violent spasms and headaches. I’m supposed to give this Z-pack a full run (5 days. Or is it 6? I have no idea.) before I start demanding other treatments. In the meantime? I just wanted to post something saying that I’m going to just back away from the computer until I feel better. I keep trying to come up with stuff to talk about every day but I can’t seem to leave the topic of my cough behind. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this crappy before and I have cried more the last five days over this damn cough that I have in years. Last night – after ever violent surge of coughing – I would just sit there with my face in my hands and cry. Because these coughs just kill my body. It sounds like I’m about to throw up, I start gagging, my headaches intensify and my abdomen pains. So, of course, I try to not cough, which only makes the eventual fit that much worse.
Essentially – I feel like shit and I can’t stop crying.
I’m functioning below normal. Keeping the family alive and in clean clothes, but that’s about it. I had to take NikkiZ to the doctor for her own issues yesterday and thought I was going to have a breakdown right there in the waiting room as I couldn’t stop coughing and I had forgotten my cough drops.
I’m simply a mess.
So – here is my notice. I probably won’t be blogging until I feel better because I know everyone is sick of reading about my cough. And I definitely don’t have the energy or desire to respond to emails. I’m essentially taking a Sick Leave from my blog life until I can function and an emotionally stable level after having at least one good night’s sleep. Going without sleep for five nights in a row now, is turning me into a very unhappy person.
Please don’t let anything too exciting happen while I’m gone, okay? I don’t want to miss anything good.